Those of you who remember the accident I was in back in September may be curious as to how I've been coping since this post. I'm still keeping up with my newfound spiritual beliefs: mostly positive thinking and mantras, adding to my gratitude/joy list, chakra color therapy, and yoga. I didn't give up talking to trees (or "connecting with nature," if you will)... in fact, shortly after my awkward introduction to "tree talking" is when things started to really pick up in terms of my progress.My overdue medical bills are being handled by my lawyer, which is a HUGE stress relief. The cost of a lawyer alone is worth it just to not have to worry myself about--and impede my progress with--how to pay these astronomical and debt-inducing hospital bills.
Speaking of bills, with my parents' help I was able to become insured under my father's policy, meaning I can finally go forward with that no-longer-$3000 invasive procedure I need to figure out where I'm bleeding internally from. If you're wondering why I wasn't insured beforehand, I recently graduated from university and was covered as a student under my school's policy. Once I graduated, that expired and it was hella expensive to insure me under either of my parents' policies. So I'm freeballing it in the world, uninsured and whatnot, when I get in this accident. Even though it's only good for a few months, thanks to Obama's health care bill I'm able to be covered until my next birthday on my dad's policy. Ask, and the universe shall provide
In terms of getting my chakras back in alignment, I know I'm making great progress. My regular readers will remember from my Chakra Khan post that almost every one of my chakras was blocked in some way. I decided to tackle the first chakra, The Crown, well... first.
Knowing that the color purple is associated with The Crown chakra, which honors one's connection to the divine, I put on my favorite purple hoodie and got to it. Purple is already my favorite color, so I have a lot of it on-hand in my wardrobe and jewelry. Surrounding myself in the color allows me to draw the divine energy associated with it, from it (you'll remember from the CK post I did the same thing with the color yellow, to strengthen The Solar Plexus chakra). And I definitely feel that my connection to divine energy/the universe/God, whatever you wanna call it, has increased exponentially.
Funny story: as an example of how open my Crown chakra has become, I've noticed an increased turnaround in terms of things resolving themselves in my life. Not only the events I've listed above, but also smaller, everyday things. The other day I lost $20 while out grocery shopping. I was pissed! So, bags in the trunk, I head back home to unload the groceries and tell my mom the terrible news. Before I can even open my mouth, she hands me $20, "for gas." I even tweeted this mess (and, no, she doesn't have a Twitter, as one follower asked!), it was amazing to me.
My work in terms of re-opening my Crown chakra allows that energy to trickle downwards and unblock the six other chakras. The second chakra, The Brow, I also feel has become unblocked. With all I'm learning in terms of patience, resilience, and endurance throughout this ordeal, I do feel like a wiser and more aware person because of it.
My Throat chakra, which honors communication, is alive and active as well. Right after the accident I had difficulty expressing myself and my wants and needs. I barely spoke at all. All along I had a strong support system of family and close friends, whom I now turn to if I need to vent, chat, or just get out the house. Even though it seems simple enough to trust and confide in your loved ones, I'm still learning to rely a little less on myself these days and allow the people in my life to help me out during all of this. I've spent the majority of my life doing things for myself, my way... now that the tables have turned a little, it does take some adjustment.
Keeping a gratitude/joy list has helped me strengthen my Heart chakra. Before, it was as if a veil of negativity blocked my view. Having a tangible list of things I'm grateful for to look at, to remind me of the wealth of love present in my life, has certainly helped lift that pesky veil.
And then there's my Solar Plexus, the chakra from which most of my pain from the accident emanates. This area is associated with confidence and personal power, and in the months since my last progress post, I've taken great care to tend to this area. Pain still radiates from here, but since surrounding myself with the associated color to this chakra (yellow), examining what I need to do in my life to increase my confidence and remind myself of my personal power, and taking yoga classes specifically designed to strengthen and heal one's body from the inside out, there is marked improvement in how extreme this pain is.
I'm still working on my sixth and seventh chakras, The Sacral and The Root. The Sacral chakra governs creativity and emotional connection, while The Root chakra honors the Earth. I said earlier in this post that my communication skills (Throat chakra) have improved from what they used to be right after my accident. I'm still working on opening up more and allowing my loved ones to provide for me, instead of the other way around like I'm used to. In the little notebook I keep my gratitude/joy list in, I've also added reminders to myself to work on increasing my patience with myself and others. I strengthen my Root chakra by telling myself that the universe will provide for all my needs; I tell myself this until I start to believe it. I still communicate with nature, albeit somewhat awkwardly, as evidenced by my tree convos. But the fact that I'm actually doing this, silly as it seemed at first, proves that I'm truly committed to grounding myself in the reality of my situation and creating a safe space for myself. You might remembering me writing that the thought that anything was possible at any given moment was terrifying to me. Nowadays, that thought is pretty empowering.
Anyways, self-improvement is an ongoing process and like anything worth having, it takes time. I see it as my job right now to increase my understanding of my condition, heal from within, and allow myself adequate time to fully recuperate. Deepening my knowledge of self and others is one of the many positives I've taught myself to recognize during this ordeal. For anyone else out there going through something similarly difficult, take heed: time and patience heal all wounds. In the meantime, you can always work on equipping yourself with the necessary means to conquer and move past that situation.
All in all, I'd say I'm coping well and very much looking forward to what blessings the new year will bring
